I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a lengthy while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I would be this for the wrong reason; as a way to prevent my problems. a course in miracles The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to generally share wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere having its residents’satisfaction, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.