I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
A Program in Wonders is indeed natural, so wonderful, so strong, and a lot more spiritually advanced than any other piece of the world’s literature (past and present), that you’ve to actually knowledge it to trust it. But these whose heads are also attached to worldly feelings, and absence the underlying desire for correct spiritual understanding that is necessary for its understanding, will likely maybe not understand a single full page. That’s perhaps not since A Course in Wonders is puzzling – on the opposite its axioms are incredibly easy – but instead since it’s the character of religious understanding that those who find themselves maybe not prepared to realize it, just cannot understand it. As mentioned in the Bible, at the start of the book of Steve: “The mild shineth in night, and night comprehended it not” ;.
From the time I first turned conscious of the beautiful and awe-inspiring existence of Lord, I’ve liked studying many amazing religious performs just like the Bible (my favorite parts would be the Sermon on the Support and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. None of them come near to the greatness of a Program in Miracles. Studying it having an open brain and heart, your doubts and troubles rinse away. You become aware of a great love heavy within you – greater than anything you realized before. The long run begins to look therefore bright for you personally and your loved ones. You’re feeling love for every one including these you previously have tried to leave excluded. These activities are extremely powerful and sometimes toss you down stability only a little, but it’s worthwhile: A Program in Miracles presents one to a love so calm, therefore powerful and so universal – you’ll question how so many of the world’s religions, whose goal is allegedly a similar experience, got so down track.
I would like to state here to any Christian who feels that his church’s teachings don’t really meet his thirst to know a type, merciful and warm God, but is somewhat afraid to learn the Program due to others’ states it is irregular with “true” Christianity: Don’t worry! I’ve browse the gospels many times and I promise you a Program in Wonders is completely in keeping with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t concern the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these poor people believe themselves to be the only real companies of Jesus’ concept, and the only real types worthy of his blessings, while other will go to hell. A Program in Wonders shows Jesus’ true concept: unconditional love for *all people*. While he was in the world, Jesus thought to determine a tree by their fruit. Therefore provide it a try and see how the fruits that ripen in your lifetime taste. When they style bad, you are able to abandon A Program in Miracles. But when they style as sweet as mine do, and the millions of other true seekers who have found A Program in Wonders to be nothing less than the usual heavenly value, then congratulations – and may possibly your center often be abundantly filled with calm, loving joy.